About Inside My Head

The ramblings of a middle-aged, tattooed, submissive, polyamorous, empathic, communist, Christian, perimenopausal, recovering alcoholic with multiple psychiatric diagnoses. I’m on an existential quest for understanding and purpose and all that bullshit

What you’ll find here:  My musings about all of the above aspects of my personality and how they interact.  My musings about being mentally ill.  My rants about the world, the hateful -isms we’re surrounded with, and assholes in general. My writings when I am struggling, as that is how I process.  Resources that I have found useful for others who are struggling to deal with any combination of the same issues. Posts and blogs from others that touch me. We are not alone.

What you won’t find here: A writer. Good editing. Proper poetry. This is where I unload. I offer it up to others in the hopes that connections may be made and hope exchanged. Period. I’m not looking to get published, so please don’t hold me to those standards. I’m vomiting out the voices in my head because they do too much damage when left alone in there.

Content that may be covered and may be unsuitable, triggering and/or offensive for some audiences:  (I do attempt to put trigger warnings for specific items at the top of posts, but I’m not perfect)

• Sex
• BDSM (Bondage, Discipline, Sadism, Masochism…..Dominance, Submission)
• Polyamory
• Sexuality
• Sexual abuse
• Rape
• Emotional abuse
• Gaslighting
• Communism
• Leftist/radical Christianity
• Alcohol and drugs
• Excessive Swearing
• Mental Illness
• Self-harm/self-mutilation
• Suicide